Friday, July 7, 2017


GOD WHYYYY ... eergh totes got K.O'd by God this week but it's all good.. cuz He is GOOD!  The past months I've been REALLY internally (and sometimes externally) frustrated and annoyed at work and at certain people at work... I try to understand but then my frustration just takes over and then I end up completely forgetting that I am trying to understand and be patient.

At prayer meeting this past week someone shared about similar frustrations at her workplace and that ultimately we must show compassion and grace even when circumstances are unfair.. and then when I was reading this book, the author talked about the parable where the master showed grace and had mercy on his servant and cancelled all his debt, but in turn, the servant did not show grace and mercy to someone else that owed him money... D: that's me! God had grace and patience with me (and also the people above me, when I was a junior at work) and now I'm just ..being a vicious monster to those below me.. and not showing grace... and then even now, when the project is over .. I STILL FEEL FRUSTRATION even just bumping into them.. I don't even want to make small talk.. AND THEN another thing ... so I've been kinda slacking off on the bookkeeping stuff I help out with this NPO recently mainly because of WORK ... at the board meeting this week I could tell the chair was SOOO annoyed with me >< and the way she spoke to me is how I spoke to my junior ... siiiigh. got a taste of my own medicine.... hurts so bad... I think that was the final "wake-up" call for me .. to feel what my junior felt. lol yep. sucks.

Sunday, June 18, 2017

Listen and obey

I love you God for showing me my sins and my faults ... I love you God for allowing me to experience this trial and challenge and thus revealing my sinfulness and things that you are wanting to change in me ... I've never felt so frustrated and impatient at work before but every single day (thru sermon thru bible passage thru friends around me even thru my Non Christian coworkers who know I'm Christian !!!) I am reminded of the fruit of the spirit .. who You want me to be .. how You want me to shine a light for you and do everything for your glory! I'm not doing a great job at the moment . My pride is still in the way .. forgive me God!!' I really do want to be freed from this and go the right way and show your love freely. I repent of this and want to turn away from my pride and my impatience and lack of love towards my coworker.. please help me to listen to and obey you this week.

“But now you must also rid yourselves of all such things as these: anger, rage, malice, slander, and filthy language from your lips. Do not lie to each other, since you have taken off your old self with its practices and have put on the new self, which is being renewed in knowledge in the image of its Creator.”
‭‭Colossians‬ ‭3:8-10‬ ‭NIV‬‬

“Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.”
‭‭Colossians‬ ‭3:12-14‬ ‭NIV‬‬


Thursday, June 15, 2017

Our great God

Dear God we praise you because you are the limitless boundless endless God .. no words can fully describe no mind can fully comprehend you.. the universe is just a glimpse of your greatness your majesty and your glory.. we praise you .. no one and nothing can contain you ... you are the most wonderful God, the greatest love, our saviour.. there is truly none like you God! Everything on earth pales in comparison to you.. the songs we sing .. words we use .. images we think of .. even the beauty of nature we see in this world does not compare to the fullness of your majesty and who you are .. Lord you are truly amazing .. I pray that I can be devoted to you all the days of my life .. please keep me close by your side .. may I walk with you every day  .. may I lean on you and rely on you in every moment .. may I think of you and live for you every day .. in everything I do, in all my wants - I pray that your desires and plans be planted deeply in those things. Thank you for revealing yourself to us.. thank you for sending us your son to show us more of you and to show us your love ... it is truly amazing that we are even able to know you! God there is still so much more we haven't seen of you .. I pray that I can humbly follow you day by day .. May I not be caught up and bound by pride and knowledge .. may I not contain you to only what I know.. may I not control and plan but I pray that I can have faith and have great expectations because you are our great God.